Its been a while since I have last dished out my thoughts...not that nothing adventurous hasn't happened in the last 2o odd days...I have been dying to write something...perhaps because, I somehow have this inability to express my feelings...I rather choose to write about them than convey them across...I don't know whether that is for the good or otherwise...I don't know whether that is because I end up thinking too much of the consequences or its the tacit me getting the better of me every single time...this undesired characteristic has always taken me by surprise, where I would finish thinking what if I had done things the other way around...in every sphere...
One particular reason that has prompted me to return to this page again is that today has been a very indifferent (read painful, heartbreaking, aching, etc...whatever conveys the intensity across to you) day for me...I have always been reserved about my feelings...today is no different...but somehow I think that if I don't let it out now, I am going to suffer for the next few days...and there's nothing like prolonged heartache to hurt you...and you my friend are the only person next to me now that will hear me peacefully and probably help me mellow down that burn...
Its not about the 20 hours that I have spent working today...its not about the sheer mechanized existence...these are too menial to bother me...but somehow I don't feel good...
There are certain things that fill you with delight... perhaps too many to mention...perhaps even too small...but they leave you with a smile on your face...some that make your heart beat faster and slower at the same time...they make you wanna live more...You know...
And then there are some that makes you feel that you have had enough...
The worst ones are those that you take too personally...the ones that you let too close to your heart...Unfortunately but undeniably...they sting...they upset you more than anything ever can...your entire life comes crashing down...f@#k
I am in that state now...don't ask me why...I can't tell you that...even if I wanted to...
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At any point in time, your head is full of thousands of random thoughts. But its that one little niggle that you want to concentrate on... Disclaimer: The ideas that I post here are strictly my own and I have no intentions to hurt anyone's sentiments. Agree or disagree, feel free to what you think of my food for thought...
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